A friend of mine told me that his friend “rides the panic attack wave” and in doing you basically feel more in control because you are allowing for the panic attack to do what it always does. I thought this was a very interesting way of dealing with it and thought I’d try it the next time I experienced one…. And sure enough, eventually I did and I mentally rode that wave of panic. The result was that my attack was much shorter, less horrific and I felt pretty good about it afterwards.

As for the drugs, I do think there is a correlation between these mental stimulants and the ensuing panic attacks, anxiety. My best friend who has never had a panic attack, sometimes gets “weird” feelings when listening to certain techno/house songs that are really deep, or if there is a story that we hear that is horrific.

It feels like once you have a panic attack that you’ll never be the same again. This feeling feels like you’ve been exposed to something, a fact or knowledge not previously known, that has changed your perception on everything in life for good. For me this rings true the most because I was never aware of panic attacks, I have no family history of it, no depression and no mental illness. So it was never something I read about a lot or was very interested in, until it happened to me.

With that said, I feel as though it was also a realisation, a way of becoming, and about life and our purpose in life. I question everything and don’t feel so invincible anymore. Life is much more precious after it all.

You mentioned about the back of the head vibrating and I know exactly how that feels. I think maybe this has something to do with our blood pressure increasing perhaps? My mama always massages the back of her head when her blood pressure goes up and maybe the stress and anxiety we are experiencing increases our blood pressure and we feel this vibrating, crawling feeling at the back?

I’ve started to see a clinical psychologist who has delved into my early childhood and life and once after not seeing her for a few weeks, I had been feeling really good about everything and was telling her about how great things were etc. What she said to me was this, “do you think your tolerance levels to stress have just increased?”. I nearly had a panic attack when she said this. Because just as I thought I was managing my stress, it felt like i actually wasn’t. This comment really bugged me and still is because as a woman, I have not had my monthly visitor in about 3-4 months, and again my therapist said this was all due to stress.

So sorry this is so long but I just want to say to whoever is reading this, is that life is good, by experiencing panic attacks, we are no different to anyone else, i think through the experience we can learn to become more in tune with ourselves, to look after ourselves and to listen to what our body is telling us.

We panic for fear of the unknown and usually stress about something that will probably not even happen, we worry about the future, but we shouldn’t be. Because all we have is the NOW.. That is all we have and all we should be living in.

Perfect recommendation: Please download the audiobook of “Ekhart Tolle – The Power of Now”. I think many of you will gain something from this audiobook.

: ) lots of smiles and good feelings to you all